Pinterest, the love/hate relationship

I know I've ranted about Pinterest before, but it was mostly about my addiction to it. In the past few months I've developed a serious love/hate relationship with Pinterest. I can't break up with it obviously because of the love portion of my relationship. Here's how pinterest is doing me wrong...

1. There are so many great ideas on there, that I want to try them all but I have a full time job, 3 kids, a husband who is like a overgrown 4th kid, and a very limited bank account to go with my very limited amount of my free time.

2. There are so many ideas on there that I either get overwhelmed and forget where I pinned things I wanted to try or I get distracted and find more things I want to try, never actually getting any of them done.

3. Most of the ideas on there that I truly love are not cooking (which I do acceptably at best) but home improvement projects that require that I obtain skills such as the ability to work with power tools, or simply knowing how to use the sewing machine I purchased on a whim 12 years ago and still can't sew a straight line with.

4. I am not handy (in case you haven't guessed that) and I am also not well versed in crafty, and to top it off I don't have neat things like Michael's or any other craft store within 30 miles of my house. Which means for the few things I have tried I have used "substitute" materials which have resulted in pintrocities, and in no way shape or form resemble the craft I intended them to be. It's very discouraging.

So you see my dilemma right? Oh Pinterest why do you mock me....

Time randomness

I was having a rather long conversation with one of my oldest friends today and I caught myself during the conversation thinking about dates in terms of before kids, after the first was born., before/after my middle was born, before/after the youngest was born , and I realized that is how I remember anything. Is it sad that the only means of remembering a timeline is based on the birth of my children? Probably but it's the best most accurate method I've got.

Eating Sh..

Do you ever get tired of eating sh*t? I know I do. Being a grown up sucks major arse, taking the high road instead of blatantly speaking your mind. I don't know if this being mature thing is really all it's cracked up to be. I know I have control issues, but a lot of those control issues are also common sense issues, and it really seems to be lacking today.

Professionalism on the work front is not all it's cracked up to be, it requires you to hold your tongue, stay neutral and not get ahead of yourself when really you see the big f-ing problems as clear as day and can see the solution potentials to those problems but it's well above your pay grade/ position to even be listened to let alone accepted. BLOWS, eating that kind of sh*t because really your only go is to see things improved and maybe by proxy improve your own situation as well.

What I want to say is....

• Hey, what you are doing is clearly not working because your overlooking the big ass elephant in the room and it's about as useful putting a band aid on a missing limb.
• Hello?!! A little stepping outside of the box and not being terrified of the big bad world around you and might be a good idea. Hey and maybe, I don't know stepping into the current times technologically could benefit you, it's not 1988 anymore!
• Um, imagine that for one second you treated the employee's as individuals instead of avoiding having to actually confront the douche canoes causing problems and laying blanket, antiquated, and stupid ass rules across the board.(did i mention its bad for employee morale)
• OMG! Here's a thought!! How about you actually look into something that's been suggested on your own or have your assistants do that for you rather than immediately taking the word of someone who is completely guilty of being terrified by anything new.

Alas, I am a professional and voiced my opinions in the (mostly) appropriate settings to the (mostly) appropriate people. Meanwhile what I see makes my smh repeatedly and actually question my own sanity. I don't understand why such asinine shit must take place in the workplace and really have to work to keep myself if check. 

That's rant enough for now before I say something that may be used against me. In the meantime, I will be thankful for the baby steps because without those I'd lose my damn mind.

New Year Resolutions

This year I resolve to not make resolutions I cannot possibly live up to in a realistically.  Clearly I cannot resolve to become financially free of all debt in just 12 months; there are other things at work there. I can however resolve that I will work harder at saving, cut unnecessary spending, and live more frugally.  The likelihood that I will end all of my bad habits are about as likely that I will hit the lotto tomorrow, so this year I will refrain from resolving to do so. 

I am resolving this year to recognize when to be more humble and just as importantly to acknowledge myself when I should. I will work on not dismissing myself or my efforts as “no problem” when in fact they are but I will also not assume that I am more important than I am, in essence I am going to seek balance. I am also going to work on thinking more deeply before I speak, as I have a habit of sticking my foot in my mouth. I am rather opinionated and have been known to make snap judgments only to later discover that I may have not had all the pertinent information at hand.

 I am as most of us are a work in progress, so rather than claiming I will become this completely transformed person this year, I will work on just being a slightly better version on myself now. I do however resolve to find more happiness in each and every day. I resolve to play more with my children as they are growing fast and soon they will not desire my attention. I resolve to look at my husband frequently, I mean really look at him, see the man I love and hope that he truly sees me in return.  These are resolutions I truly hope I can live up to in the year 2013. 

Let me also add to that~ I will work on putting value into things that are worthy, and in doing so not waste my time on the things that bring no value to my family, life, or happiness.