Can you feel the pressure?
I like list, I like to give the illusion that I am
organized, a gifted multi-tasker, that I can handle anything. This year I am
failing!!! I cannot believe that it’s December 1st this is the most
unprepared I’ve been for Christmas EVER! I am not even close to being ready for
my kids to rip open gifts in just 24 short f-ing days. I certainly haven’t
bought or taken our annual Christmas picture to display how much the kids have
grown. I usually take this pretty seriously especially since I certainly don’t
develop, print, buy or whatever many pictures of the kids throughout the year,
this is the BIG one, the one that tells all the family both distant and close, “look
hey, I kept the kids alive, they look good and hell they are even growing up”.
I think what has me the most stressed out is that I had a
master plan for Christmas this year. I had decided this was going to be a
Christmas that they would actually appreciate more after the day itself more so
than tearing open packages they would soon forget about anyway. Sadly my master
plan required a lot of preparation on my part, and as the days quickly pass, my
progress gets nowhere the stress of it all builds and BAM! I am still
struggling because now I’m acknowledging the stress, it’s a vicious cycle.
Seriously my kids ask for very little, legos, a video
game or two, some dvds, and other random odds and ends. I mean in the grand
scheme of things they didn’t ask for much. My master plan involved fixing up
their TV room, a new TV, stand, and a blue-ray player, a futon to replace the
1970’s gold-ish couch that eats everything that gets near it and some shelves
for storage and organization since I’ll be discarding the giant and ancient
entertainment center that serves as a storage area for clutter, trash and dust
currently. Fine, I’ll admit it; once I put it into writing I see the “master
plan” was more for me than for them. Less clutter means less cleaning for me. The
creation of their TV room was for me too, less cartoons I am forced to sit
through, and not having to watch them play the Wii was nice too. Maybe if I
spent less time on Pinterest
I would have time to get it all done….
